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My life-changing experience with EMDR therapy to manage PTSD

Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing focuses on reducing the vividness and emotion associated with the traumatic memories

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By Aaron Greathouse

My marriage was in shambles. My kids didn鈥檛 want to be around me. My family preferred the days I was on shift. I was a ticking time bomb, and every little thing set me off.

My wife begged me to get help. I took it as nagging and had a million excuses not to listen to her. At her wit鈥檚 end, and knowing I would only continue to spiral, she gave me an ultimatum: 鈥淵ou can get help, or we can get a divorce.鈥

I agreed to attend a retreat with my wife. I went into the event thinking I would just get my wife off my case, but I left with a new sense of connection to her, a will to be better and a sense of hope knowing that I wasn鈥檛 the only one experiencing this pain. I was connected to resources that I had no idea even existed prior to attending the event. And most importantly, I recognized and accepted that PTSD in first responders is real, and it鈥檚 OK to get help.

Breaking through the pain

One of the life-changing moments from the retreat was watching 鈥 and the story of her husband, Firefighter Chip Terry, who died by suicide in 2017. Her words broke through to me. Everything she shared about her husband being a 鈥渏ackass鈥 鈥 that was me. Jo spoke about the pain her and her children have endured since Chip鈥檚 suicide. In that moment, I could see my funeral, and my kids and wife enduring that pain.

Jo was in a small group session with all the firefighters鈥 wives and later said she felt connected to my wife because she recognized the pain she was experiencing and didn鈥檛 want her to end up on the other side of that pain as a widow. Jo said the hard but necessary things to get my attention and move me to take action.

It was with Jo鈥檚 help that I started down the path of healing. I used both traditional and unconventional methods, including therapy with a first responder-focused therapist who does (EMDR) therapy, and I got a 鈥 all to address my PTSD.

I鈥檝e been a firefighter for 17 years and have experienced many rough calls. Some just stick with me. Some are the reason I wake up from a nightmare sitting straight up covered in sweat in the middle of the night. I needed help.

With the guidance of the therapist, EMDR has been a crucial tool for some of my worst calls, the ones that keep me up at night, the nightmares, the triggers. Anger was my only emotion. I鈥檓 now able to understand my triggers and more effectively manage my emotions when something comes up. The most recent holiday season was the first when I didn鈥檛 completely lose my head over a Thanksgiving Day call from 2017 that always came back to me during the holidays. I credit this progress to EMDR and its process of working through the pain.

Understanding EMDR

EMDR is a technique used to treat traumatic memories and other distressing experiences. Specifically, EMDR therapy involves moving your eyes a specific way while you process traumatic memories. EMDR鈥檚 goal is to help you heal from trauma or other distressing life experiences. According to the , the first clinical trial investigating EMDR was in 1989, and dozens of clinical trials since then have shown this technique to be effective.

My first EMDR was quite a positive experience for me. My therapist was able to find a specific traumatic memory to focus on and then able to get me into a meditative state to recall the traumatic memory in greater detail. She guided me into a bilateral stimulation (rhythmic left-right eye movement) while we processed the memory. According to the , the eye movement activates both sides of the brain and leads to a reduction in the vividness and emotion associated with the traumatic memories. In other words, it allows for the processing of thoughts that are 鈥渟tuck鈥 in our memories, making us feel like we are reliving the incident over and over again. EMDR seeks to get us 鈥渦nstuck鈥 so we can process the thoughts and move on from them.

We went step by step through the memory with vivid detail to help me process it. Once we processed the memory, we went back over the memory at a later appointment to see how distressing it was to me. The distressing rating did go down based on processing the memory.

鈥楳y life has changed so much鈥

Going to the retreat with my wife was the best thing I ever did, and the decisions that followed that first with meeting Jo 鈥 getting the SGB, going through first responder-focused therapy and EMDR 鈥搕ruly saved my life. My life has changed so much, and I鈥檓 thankful for a clear view as I continue to work with the therapist and do EMDR to be a better dad and husband.


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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Aaron Greathouse is the fire chief for the Licking Rural Fire Department and a lieutenant with the city of Saint Robert Fire & Rescue in Missouri.

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